From my Inner Monologue:
You never stay in not knowing, your mind wanders. You are aware of the wondering, yes. It wasn't what you call living, life, no it was your thinking. You reacted to your own thinking, which you thought was life itself. Yes that is what you did that is what you are doing. It seems that to know life or to experience life directly ones thinking must abate. (temporarily) I am not denying sensual perceptions, those only have meaning according to our thoughts.
This coincides with "we do not see reality" (Donald Hoffman) or the way to truth is "with a silent mind". (J Krishnamurti) among others.
Rev. 2, 9/18
It is natural to want to understand what life is, here pain is the catalyst and of course curiosity. All of our friends and loved ones are dying, will die and of course we ourselves will die. I spent my youth either ignoring or escaping these facts along with some mental issues. The fact is, the longer I am alive the more clear it is to me that all of humanity are afflicted with some type of mental issues. The fact that we escape this life of mystery and pain ostensibly explains religion. Religions make outlandish claims that are mired in utter nonsense. Human desperation makes clear the "proverbial leap of faith".
I am back to "thinking must abate". You can call this meditation however be aware, in reality there is meditating when the image of meditating is not there. Follow the breath and be aware of the mental images that arise, but do not dwell on anything. It is said that there is a natural understanding natural meaning it is already there and for it too manifest the mind must be still. This may seem an arduous task but that is only because we've filled our minds with all kinds of things in our quest to understand or escape the pain of not understanding. It also seems extremely sensible that truth is not knowledge and is available to all simply by being aware. Try it, it certainly cannot hurt. I am going to try it myself. I'll keep you posted.
REV 3/ 9/28
It is the I that wants liberation, is the "I" the problem in the first place? Self arises in our thinking! The term for this understanding is Non - Duality.
REV. 4/ 10/31 I think and feel that there is a right way to exist, to be and that very well may be true, however it is not contained in the human field of knowledge.
DT AKA WTR
